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I had a sleepless night last night... not cause I had too much fun (☺️) but because I was wide awake considering the incredible transformation that has occurred for me, over the last 3 years. I have decided to share it with you, because shame is what keeps us feeling isolated and miserable, and because I am grateful to now be in an intimate and gentle relationship with myself. And because it's what inspires me to give to the many people I connect with weekly. 
Warning ❗️It's long, but read on if you wish. 😘
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I am learning to inject gentleness in my words, actions, intentions. And with this process, I am gently re-discovering who I am. 
It has been a difficult, tumultuous and long road towards self-acceptance. 
I see it clearly now: in my teenage years and early adulthood I had so little self-love I was always reaching out for approval, I was always doubting myself, I was playing small, I was constantly refraining myself from trying what I dreamed to do, I was scared, I couldn't receive love or even a compliment, I was sure to be incapable of realising what I envisioned. 
I was stuck, and stagnating in my own shadow. 
My self-confidence was already pretty low.  But somehow I found myself trapped in a destructive abusive relationship, from which I came out weaker than ever, with quasi inexistent self-esteem and with a new poison controlling me: a binge eating disorder. 🖤
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At 25, I finally had the courage to leave and free myself from this disaster. But I was completely lost, disconnected. I was extremely fragile, with absolutely no connection to my body, or my heart. 💔
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Over the years of dedicated Yoga practice, lots of great help from psychologists, kinesiologists, support from amazing friends, with dance and TM meditation and a huge amount of self-discipline, I gradually decided to forgive myself for the harm done, and committed to re-learning to know and accept myself. Cause deep inside, I had this burning intuition, which would show at random times (listening to Jazz, kissing someone, savouring a meal, seeing a shooting star...) proving me that life was meant to be much brighter, and that I deserved to live La Vie fully. 🌟

I had a sleepless night last night... not cause I had too much fun (️) but because I was wide awake considering the incredible transformation that has occurred for me, over the last 3 years. I have decided to share it with you, because shame is what keeps us feeling isolated and miserable, and because I am grateful to now be in an intimate and gentle relationship with myself. And because it's what inspires me to give to the many people I connect with weekly. Warning ️It's long, but read on if you wish. . I am learning to inject gentleness in my words, actions, intentions. And with this process, I am gently re-discovering who I am. It has been a difficult, tumultuous and long road towards self-acceptance. I see it clearly now: in my teenage years and early adulthood I had so little self-love I was always reaching out for approval, I was always doubting myself, I was playing small, I was constantly refraining myself from trying what I dreamed to do, I was scared, I couldn't receive love or even a compliment, I was sure to be incapable of realising what I envisioned. I was stuck, and stagnating in my own shadow. My self-confidence was already pretty low. But somehow I found myself trapped in a destructive abusive relationship, from which I came out weaker than ever, with quasi inexistent self-esteem and with a new poison controlling me: a binge eating disorder. 🖤 . At 25, I finally had the courage to leave and free myself from this disaster. But I was completely lost, disconnected. I was extremely fragile, with absolutely no connection to my body, or my heart. . Over the years of dedicated Yoga practice, lots of great help from psychologists, kinesiologists, support from amazing friends, with dance and TM meditation and a huge amount of self-discipline, I gradually decided to forgive myself for the harm done, and committed to re-learning to know and accept myself. Cause deep inside, I had this burning intuition, which would show at random times (listening to Jazz, kissing someone, savouring a meal, seeing a shooting star...) proving me that life was meant to be much brighter, and that I deserved to live La Vie fully. - 10 hours ago

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