Haven't posted much lately because quite frankly, ive had the worst week of the last few years (it feels like in my opinion). I had something happen which made me feeling vulnerable, personally violated and ive never felt so paranoid or scared since then. It was a big wake up call that safety is the most important thing which can be easy to forget when you get caught up in today's dynamic fast paced world. There really are no excuses but I made the conscious decision to take the week off my prep for INBA Nationals because I couldn't deal with the amount of things I need to deal with and going to work, let alone keeping up with prep. At this point, I'm unsure i will be doing Nationals next week as my body is far from stage ready and I mentally am not in the right space to deal with prep right now with the amount of work I need to do to fix things.
I'm incredibly sad but maybe I needed this wake up call to bring my head back to reality and focus on what's really important in life: safety of yourself, friends and family.
As you can see, i put on body fat relatively quickly in a few days. But going back to gym makes me less anxious about leaving the house and makes me smile for the first time all week.
Feeling so so so lucky to have so many amazing friends and family. I always freak out at how I got so lucky to have people so great in my life, i definitely don't deserve it.
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