I keep a few old photos on my phone to serve as a reminder of where I started from... I look at them when I'm having a rough day, when I've tanked a workout, blown my macros, had less than zero energy, and so-on. Today was another one of those days.
I definitely hit rock bottom physically in August 2013 (top right) after I had my first knee surgery (meniscus removal and microfracture). I was helpless... I quite literally could not get off of the downstairs couch for 8 days without Alan's help. It's a wonder I never peed on the couch given he couldn't be there all the time. I couldn't even switch positions on without an epic struggle. It was hell. When Alan finally figured a way to get me up and down the stairs, that improved things significantly... at least I had my bed and shower. I was on crutches for six weeks, and it took everything in my power to hobble across the house. I would cry every time I had to go anywhere or get in my car, because it hurt that badly.
The top pic reminds me of how bad I was... and that wasn't even my highest weight. That topped out after I lost my daddy almost three years ago. And yet here I am, beating myself up mentally over feeling excessively low-energy all week, not being able to jump or do pullups lile everyone else, in spite of the fact that I did my first 10k on Sunday! That was huge for me on a multitude of levels. I am light years beyond my wildest dreams in August 2013 and January 2015, when I was 80lbs heavier, starting this whole weight loss adventure like I promised my dad before he passed. Every week isn't going to be stellar, and I need to own the fact that I can do stuff I couldn't do 3 months ago, let alone 3 years ago. I will get there. I've gone through rock bottom, and I refuse to defeat myself to the point I return there ever again. #tbt #weightlossjourney #betteringmyself #progress #recovery #weightloss #pushingmyself #fitnessjourney #rockbottom #thingstobehappyabout #proud #transformingmyself #fitnessgoals #mentalstrength #crossfit #lifestyle #kneesurgerysucks #ithinkicanithinkican #pushingthrough #kneerehab #healthierme #neveragain #wag #transformation #igothis #fakeittilimakeit 🤘 - 5 hours ago