Week 26: Initiation
“As she completes one round of descent and transformation, she plunges into yet another. These alchemical rounds are complete, each with a nigredo, loss, rubedo, sacrifice, and albedo, coming of light, following one upon the other. All this descending and loss and finding and strengthening portrays women’s lifelong initiation into the renewal of the wild.”
—Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves
I cannot find my way into a world in which I do not belong. In an attempt to survive, my purpose has been muddied, my willpower is worn, and I want to surrender. I am at a loss. I feel like I am drowning, that my autonomy, voice, and spirit are being taken from me… and yet, I feel a need to stay. I need to know that good and right will prevail. Is this my lesson, is this a trap? Am I sacrificing a revelation, transformation, and death to prove a point, to be right, to fulfill a version of myself that is no longer needed?
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