I’m literally dying from lack of vitamin D and sea salt pools.
& while being this small was cute and is cute, I can tell you that what I was telling myself after the picture was taken was that, I wasn’t cute. In fact I hated myself after this picture. I was so mad at myself for not being the image I portrayed myself to be after killing my self with that diet and straining workout plan. The mind fucks of trying to chisel myself down to an ideal image was actually shredding to my self image more than my actual physique. You’ve heard it all before, it’s Instagram users favorite thing to talk about; mental breaks in prep. Well all I’m gonna say is, I am so freaking excited to run around in a bikini this year without any expectations.
I have grown to really feel so comfortable in my skin. I don’t seek validation from anyone, I eat what I want, I have a healthy relationship with the gym. I actually look to the gym as enjoyable vs “if I don’t go, I’ll be taking steps back in my progress.” I don’t wanna live like that and it’s completely rearranged the priorities of my image. So, anyways, ya see ya at the pool with whatever physique I have that day
#poolseasoniscoming #bikiniready #selfloveclub #iamwhatiam #noexpectations - 19 hours ago