THE PHONE CALL I NEVER MADE THAT MATTERED THE MOST
I’ll never ever forget that morning.
I’ll never forget what it felt like to have my heart ripped out of my soul.
And the worst part... I was supposed to call him .... for like a month.
The last time we ever communicated was this text.
We agreed to call each other soon and ended our texts by reminding each other what one meant to the other.
And then for almost 5 weeks I let life get in the way.
I let business get in the way.
And my brother was struggling on the other side of the country and I never knew.
Because I never reached out.
Do you think it feels good to remember?
Do you think it feels good to admit this to you all?
And as I typed out that text... “Hey brother, I know it’s early as hell but your mom was blowing me up this morning and it’s worrying me. Call me when you can” ... all I could think was “I never called Dustin. Please please please let everything be ok”
It was just before 5:00AM that his sister called me and said the words... “Marshal...Dustin is gone. He hanged himself”
It was one of the worst days of my whole life.
I promised myself the day of his visitation, as I hid in the back, broken and hurting, that I’d spend the rest of my life making sure I pour love and support and belief into every soul that I meet.
This story is a big chunk of my WHY.
I’m not proud of the fact I let my brother down.
But I am proud that together Dustin and I are going to save a million lives who save a million lives.
Together, brother and brother, we will go out into the world, share our story, and we’re going to save life after life after life after.
Don’t do what I did.
Don’t wait until it’s too late to take care of the important stuff in life.
Call that person you’ve been meaning to.
You never know what your story and support could mean to the person you connect with.
I urge you all to be more vulnerable.
Share more of the things you don’t want to.
The way to save lives and help prevent suicide is to stop pretending we are perfect and crushing it and have it all figured out.
And to start being real and raw and connecting with others by sharing your story. - 45 seconds ago