i feel so good right now, like so so good. i haven’t felt like this in a very long time. i have been in a bit of a hole lately and i felt like i couldn’t see out of it. now i feel free and happy (wow i haven’t said that in over a year). i have actually gotten out of my bed the past 2 days and done some basic self care. i started using the app calm harm and it really seems to be helping. i am 2 days clean. i know this seems small, but it feels like a lifetime to me. but...i am very scared to fall back into the dark, and i know that i will. i know that i will have these same tendencies and coping habits when i do go back down. but, it feels so good to be up right now. and thank you to everyone who has helped me, i truly love you guys. without you i dont think i would be here to appreciate you today. thank you.
qotd: do you enjoy my more “meme” style posts, or my mood board posts more? - 18 hours ago