This is my body. One of my classmates who’s also a close friend just told me that apparently last week one of the guys in our class made fun of my body, called me fat, called me gross, called me disgusting, and made my size and my weight the butt of a joke.
I’ve struggled for YEARS with my weight as well as my body image. When I was the most fit I’ve ever been in my life (working out several times a day every weekday, cleaning up my diet, etc) I put on fifty pounds. Not even my doctors knew why. I finally found out within the past eight or so months through doctor visits, consultations, and over half a dozen blood tests that I have thyroid issues and PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome), and both of those conditions are what caused me to put on so much weight and not be able to lose any of it. I was putting on weight my entire high school swimming career, and let me tell you, I was so fucking active and I worked my ass off six days a week and I was still gaining weight. Which is weird.
So essentially, being fat wasn’t directly related to my decisions and choices.
But for someone who has no idea what I’ve been through, doesn’t know my life story, and isn’t aware of my insecurities and how my body image affects me on a daily basis to make my size, my weight, and my body the butt of a fucking joke hurts me. A lot. When my friend told me I cried. Hard. I feel so ugly and have felt ugly for my entire adolescent life because I couldn’t stop gaining weight and I was fat. That one comment has completely shattered and torn down all the confidence I spent YEARS building up. And that’s the worst part. What people say hurts. My size, height, weight, and overall physical appearance is the biggest thing I’ve struggled with my entire life because it’s so hard to think you’re beautiful when people like that douche bag in my class are tearing you down and making your insecurities a joke. •
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