Deadlifts 3 ways. Regular, dumbbells, and med ball. Because I think a girl always needs her choices, depending on mood of course 🏻
I remember my very first time at a gym after my 3rd child and the #mombod became my identity. I was so nervous, (like I was sweating before the workout) I tried to hide so that no one would see me in all my body shame. I wore my hubby's sweats, a hoodie, and b-lined it for an elliptical. I was a young 29 who just landed back into a body that made me cry and this time it wasn't melting away. I never wanted to be that girl again, there I was self loathing in and comparing in a room of fitter people than me (so I thought). I didn't last long, maybe a month and I ran for the hills...literally. I decided to run instead of facing my fear of being inadequate, I could do that alone.
Now 8 years later, I still had butterflies heading into my new gym. Even though the gym is my comfy place for 5 years now and I thrive there. Even though I am training to get my CPT and already have 3 years of fitness education and experience. Even though I love fitness and it is my biggest passion. Having to begin again somewhere new is hard, whether you are a starting out or making a come back.
This time with my 10lb gain holiday bod, omgosh I am almost 37 age, and hey for the first time ever I KNOW NO ONE realization, I walked in feeling that old way, but it didn't last long. Something was different this go round. I didn't care what anyone thought of me, as a matter of fact no one noticed or was watching. I came in did my sets, filmed my WOD, and left feeling like it was nice to be alone. Thank goodness I had the tools and confidence to do my own thing. Mindset. It is want determines our comfort and ability to adapt. Today may have been scary for the first 10 mins, but I was able to be proud of myself for overcoming the discomfort and finding myself, in a new space. - 32 seconds ago