Out & about in my daily busy Mum life people will often comment to me that; ‘I’m always so peaceful’. 'Girl you have no idea....if you had seen/HEARD me tryna get my kids out the door this morning!!’ Is like, every single time, the reply that goes through my head.
I actually never really feel worthy of that compliment or I get a feeling like I’m somehow being fraudulent. ...yet time & time again it comes up.
Then recently something hit me.
I recognised my comeback rate!
I’ve had many a spiritual teacher who have taught me that living a peaceful life doesn’t mean you are ALWAYS peaceful, blissful, enlightened, at ease, or generally floating around with the fairies being uninvolved with the world.
We are Human after all. We get stressed. People piss us off. We experience a myriad of emotions on the daily & sometimes drama comes no matter how hard we try to hide from it.
A few weeks ago I received news that honestly made my blood boil, I felt angry, betrayed, used, unloved & pretty much like my life was over....my whole body went into stress hormone overdrive, I cried, I started emotionally eating...luckily our cupboards were pretty empty so I emotionally cleaned instead 🤣. I was so damn tempted to send an angry bitter text! I yelled at my kids & my partner when they had done nothing wrong.....and then I noticed it.
I noticed that I’d let this news take my peace from me. I’d let this person who was trying to get to me...get to me.
& I came back.
I recognised in that moment that I had allowed emotion & negative thinking to overcome me.... & instead of letting it consume me, I needed to allow myself to feel it, recognise it, name it , let it go.
I needed to Remember that this particular situation was out of my control... but my RESPONSE to it was completely IN my control.
I took some deep breaths, I got outside for some fresh air, I called a friend for support.
And I came back to Peace.
This whole process took me about half an hour. In the past It would’ve taken me months, if not years...all over one thing.
I’m not peaceful all the time, honestly, I’m not. But my comeback rate SHOWS me..... that I OWN my peace, I do!
And you can own yours too. - 5 hours ago