What I want to say is "fuck you" to all those in power and privilege who has played whatever part in keeping the systems that are unjust intact. I want to say "fuck you" to the privileged who hides behind personal trauma stories, justifications to not connect with the collective suffering that they play role in upkeeping white supremacy actively by defending and passively by staying silent nonetheless. I want to say "fuck you" to the privileged for asking those in less power to do the emotional and physical labor to educate the white privileged about racism in nice tone. Fuck your willful ignorance, arrogance, fragility and laziness. I want to say "fuck you" to everyone who says they stand for equality and justice yet when called in and out hide behind how "hard" their life is and how they need to prioritize their selfishness over everything else. I am seeing the ugliness, the harm and the hypocrisy of lip service allyship aka performative allyship.
I have been tone policed and gaslit in real life when bringing up the topic of racism, capitalism, greed, white supremacy, privilege and power so many times that I have no more tears and benefit of doubt left for this population's personal mental health issues and their apathy towards everyone else's suffering.
So many times I want to say "fuck you" but I end up saying "please, sorry and I love you." I will no longer censor myself anymore. My censoring of direct experience and truth has not brought a single racist person to become a decent human being.
So here I am. Fuck you to your fake friendships, love, supports, prayers, praises and admirations.
I had been trained by a good peaceful tibetan refugee persona to thrive and fit nicely into the agenda of white supremacy. I can't fucking no more. It's ripping me apart from inside.
If you want to be a true ally. Fucking do @wildmysticwoman #MeAndWhiteSupremacy 28 day challenge from the beginning and follow the guidelines and respect her boundaries and see yourself clearly. - 9 hours ago