Let's talk about failure. I didn't improve on my deadlift 1RM today - I had a go at 105, then 102.5, but the bar wouldn't move. 100kg was already a struggle, so this wasn't a surprise.
I used to get deeply and inconsolably frustrated with failed PR attempts, it would put me in an awful mood and I'd see it as a personal failure. Today I know there can be so many reasons for it: I'm in the middle of my luteal phase in my cycle, enjoying some fun PMT and my strength is at a low point. It was also the end of an intense working day, and the night before I had only slept about six hours. The only thing that was okay was the food intake (PMT, remember?). When I hit 100kg, I was at the end of my period week and had the day off, so I had lots of rest and came to the gym after a relaxed morning at home. So, I know now that the conditions are not ideal sometimes, and I stopped getting too upset about it. Okay, I also hit my 35kg overhead press 1RM today, that probably balanced things out a bit :)
However, I can still understand my old me. When you start following powerlifting communities and accounts, you get bombarded with videos of women moving twice their bodyweight with ease, and I have a tough time not feeling like not being worthy taking part in those communities, because I am still such a noob and will always be a noob. Which of course isn't true, but it's hard to focus on your own journey when everyone around you seems to have transformed into a superhero.
So, I wanted to share an honest and vulnerable moment with you, one you usually don't see on Instagram, but one that represents about 70-80% of my PR attempts. :) We are all humans, and nothing happens just because someone is amazing. What makes it happen is work, trying, failing, work more, try again, and maybe one day succeed!
Thanks @silverfit2018 for the vid and the words as always :)
#fail #pr #prattempt #1rm #1rmfail #deadlift #nottoday #maybenexttime #gym #legday #pmt #period #lutealphase #tooheavy - 18 hours ago