Sunday morning thoughts:
I am so happy that I made this Instagram account when I did. It all (re)started in April of 2017,
with a want to begin another "whack" at my lifelong health and fitness journey.
Last summer I went full force with BBG, daily running, lifting and intense HIIT styled cardio at Unite Fitness, kettlebells classes on the weekends, drinking Shakeology every day, and eating balanced but also wicked clean.
I was a health and exercise machine, with balance between work and play, which transformed me into the happiest, healthiest, most energized version of myself.
My archive goes to show that healthy eating and regular exercise (especially with weights) can legitimately change your life.
Then my junior year of college hit.
To be honest, I was stressed from Day 1.
Every month the stress accumulated, until it hit a point in the spring where it started affecting me mentally and physically.
Not allowing myself to rest over winter break, and not having a spring break (from traveling to Guatemala) also didn't help.
And I was too stressed and busy to seek help.
This ruined the end of my spring semester for me, including my 21st birthday.
I will never forget going to bed at 7pm because I couldn't mentally or physically handle the day anymore.
It's no secret that I stopped practicing what I preached.
I not only de-prioritized myself and all of my self-care habits, but de-HUMANIZED myself.
I have successfully gone through 10 months of allowing others to tell me who I am, who I should be, and what is "best" for me.
So many months of putting myself on the backburner in an attempt to please others and not let them down.
But what is a life where you have
the gift of photography,
the talent of singing and playing piano,
a desire to exercise to be strong inside and out,
the blessing of beautiful friends and family...
And no drive or energy to do... any of it anymore?
The life I'm living.
But that's not the life I want to live.
That is not what your 20's should be!
I am ready to gain myself back.
Are you with me?
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