So I don’t know why, but I shared the same story with two completely different audiences last Friday, just out of circumstance. The topic just came up for two very different reasons and I shared.
The first circumstance was an elderly patient who was/is struggling with the newfound inability to participate in her “old/pre-total joint replacement” life. My only reference and way to empathize was my story.... The second time was with colleagues. One told me how amazed she was with my physical health and that she was so inspired by my progress. I explained to her and the others at our table where I came from... Physically, where did I come from? Not many know but I realized that day, and have been reflecting on it ever since, how deep my story runs within my soul... I had a highly complicated pregnancy. Triplets. I lost Baby B at 12 weeks . At 22 weeks I went into preterm labor. Immediate bed rest. At 24 weeks I was med-evacuated from Maui to Oahu.. 10 days in the hospital and another 10 weeks on strict bed rest with my dear friend Marissa. I am eternally grateful to her and her hubby, Patrick (another story there..). But when my twinkies were safely delivered at just shy of 35 weeks, and we returned home, we hired a photographer, karma, to take newborn/family photos and the twins were 3 weeks old.
My shared story starts here... I recall Karma doing a few shots of the babies on the floor. I went to the floor with them, of course. Then I had to stand. I literally could not lift myself up from the floor. I was mortified. So f@&*ing embarrassed. I was the girl whose MD told her to gain 5lbs and stop running to help with chances of pregnancy and before starting fertility meds. And then I became the girl who was too weak to stand without help. I was the person who had to follow the advice and tips I gave to my patients.
I remember knee-walking to a dresser to pull myself up to standing and then being able to lean over and lift my babies (who were only 4.5 lbs each!). Again, completely mortified. Who was this person and how could I be so weak and deconditioned? (Continued in comments) - 5 hours ago